Friday, June 23, 2006 ♥
today...i dun noe y but it reminded me that the seniors r leaving..i mean..we just got to noe them this year..n soon theyd be gone..theres this bond between the seniors n the juniors..at least thats how it feels..and soon after this year..they'll just vanish!its like a basketball family photo..except that the seniors are ripped from it.or mabe..its like something inside u died...torn away mabe.. missing....everythings gonna be soo different..theres still sooo much to learn from them...yet soo little time.having this thought of them leaving.. i just couldnt take it. i had to let it out. orelia tried to console me over the phone..n now i feel bad.. i made her cry too.omgg its just sooo damn freakin sad!they just did soooo much 4 us..n yet we didnt do anything 4 them.not even once did we stop to think abt them. yet now.. having the thought of em leave..we cant take it.seriously.its just too much to handle.talking to orelia actually made me break down..even her..by the end of this year..no more seniors..theyd be gone..we only have a month more to train together.after that,wed be on seperate ways.everything would be forever lost.all except 4 the journey we had together.that we'd treasure.it'll be all just a memory.i never actually knew how much i love my bball seniors.i think i do now.well mabe.at least i noe its enough to make me realli break down into tiny peices.thats how much i love them. everythings gonna be sooo different.from the team.. next year thered only be deb mary n chow.at least we still have them.. yet..life would be different.very different.