Alyssa..
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chij tp sec
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there was a friendly on wednesday against tkgs.although we won, i think all of us have the same feeling i do.to me it feels as if we lost the match.i dunt noe why.is it cause we din play our best?

dinner with the bballers after the match really cheered me up (: dessert!! we talked abt stuff..a whole bunch of stuff that made me laugh sooo hard, i was the last to finish my dessert.

after sch on thursday had some tamil typing shit course thing. do yall noe how hard is it to sit in 1 place and type tamil for 3 freakin hours? im not known to sit still doing something i dont like for even an hour. aiyo.. torture. at least i din go on wed cause i prefered going for the match.and those who went on wed had to type a compo without looking at the sheet of paper showing which letters to press.

training today (:
my feet hurts.court was wet and water got into my shoe and my socks were soaked.since it was in my shoe for like.. i dunno how many hours, my feel turned white cause tooo much water was temporarily absorbed. ):

i shall go back to eating my tuna sandwich.did i tell u how much i love tuna?!?!?!? n milo?!?!?!

yep.nites.

yesterday shum,deborah,me and priya went to macs for breakfast before meeting at west cc to train.we grew sooo bored waiting for pf that we decided to play truth or dare.but aftre awhile it became dare or double dare cause me n deb kept choosing truth.damn it lah!!i chose dare!sooo stupid of me!!shum being soooo...aiyo... she took many packets of sugar,salt and coffee mix and mixed together and added water and asked me to drink all.how could anyone drink smth that looks ike puke?n im not emphasizing.it really does look like puke.so i asked her if i could just take a sip n thankfully she said okay.so after starring at it for a good 3 minutes, i did take a sip.it tastes sooo damn sick lor!it tastes of very salty liquid with extra extra salt.

tmr match against tkgs.WE WILL WIN!!

haha.

things i cant stand.
i cant stand people who cheat.
i cant stand people who lie
i cant stand people who says they will do smth but in the end wont do.
i cant stand lectures.
i cant stand too many people telling me stuff to do at the exact same time.
i cant stand tamil music.
i cant stand a lot more..

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seems so aliveI cant keep up and i cant back down ive been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And i dont know why i cant keep my eyes off of you

What are the things that i want to say
Just arent coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You got my head spinning
I dont know where to go from here

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And i dont know why i cant keep my eyes off of you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right


'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of
You and me and all of the people With nothing to do nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

yesterday sasha finally gave birth to two. i cant believe how random i am.while waiting for my cat to push i was stoning at my mom's glass with honey water.then i asked her how to make pan cakes and she was like plain flour...later can?i mean i actually asked her that while my cat was in labour.sooo random please.actually my mom brought her to the vet since she wasnt pushing the second one out.yep.then me,deb,priya and shum and conference over the phone.well i din really pay much attention cause i was watching supernatural.haha.

i think supernatural is really stupid.this week's episode is abt a scarecrow with a hook killing people and last week's ghost was all grey and its eye balls were lob-sided.

well anw after supernatural finished and i barely started eating my tuna sandwich,my mom called asking me to ask my maid to check on shakira-the other pregnant cat.and so i did.a few seconds later my maid was like...ALYSSA!! ALYSSA!! ALYSSA!!and im like..WHAT!?!?!WHAT!?!?!WHAT!?!?!and she was like...*weird language*all i could make up was baby.yep.so i jumped and went to the room and my maid quickly took the baby with the umblical cord still connected.then after she panic me sooo much she ask me to tie the string on its cord.im like i dunno how to tie!!then she tied it.n i cut the thing.then she asked me to take the towel..like i knew where it was..so she handed me the baby and went to take the towel.then we hairdryer-ed it.while i was hairdryer-ing it,its mom came and took it from me and carried it back to the scartching post place where the cat naps..yep.

so now i have 1 kitten from shakira and 2 from sasha.mega darma please.

today i went to play bball in the morning.everyone who came is damn retarded.otherwise i wouldnt have laughed so much. (:

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

One my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and, never let me go

i cant believe i feel emotional over this song

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through

Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence


Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed

He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

after sports day some of us last minute went for lunch.

then we went to west cc to so-called play bball but no one was dere so we couldnt.so shum tai shar went to sun-tan in the middle of the court.me n val decided not to but still went to the court n watched them tan.then someone said sam pull up ur shirt so wont have tan lining.it was actually refering to the sleeve but both sam's lifted up the shirt.like omg.think both of em got a ear deaf.n even worse a guy walked passed.hahaha so funnaye.yall should have seen shum's reaction.haha

then we split up.some of us went home some went back to sch to play bball.saw audrey in sch..i think audrey is quite good despite not playing the actual game of bball before including the rules.

i realized i cannot catch the bball when thrown to the left since my middle finger still hasnt recovered.rahhhhso thats how it slipped of my fingers during training. :(

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down,
A new life she has found

yesterday was retreat.i dun get y a lot of people cried during it.aiyo

playes match during training.i cant believe i jhust let the bball slip off my fingers,yet again leting it push my alr injured middle finger.i couldnt do the pull-up thing in the gym i only hold the bar with two fingers and managed to pull myself up.yay me.i couldnt hold the dumb-bells too.my index n middle fingers were sticking out,not grabbing to the dumb-bell.and when people ask me y my index finger is sticking out when only my middle finger was injured,i simply say that its cause i cant only stick out my middle finger. (n swear to everyone in the room.)

i think i made my middle finger worse cause i cant fully straighten it all the way and i cant bend it all the way down.damn it.

only 3 turned up for tamil today.the rest went for retreat.n my tamil teacher was biting her nails and spiting it out.once,spiting it in front of us.gross please.all of us were giving each other dirty looks.i mean if u wanna bite ur nails, bite it somewhere else can?and spit somewhere else too.

damn.no one has started on art..the shoe shit.. n its due tmr.rite now im waiting for the paint to dry.then im gonna stick the other stuff on..im soo gonna fail art this year.

training's tmr!cant wait! (:

went for training an hour early.at 750 to be exact.got THE TALK from tai zi at 8.02.
2 people were late.THE TALK went on for abt 20 mins to half an hour.like anyone will give their true opinions abt a person they dun like..i wont be surprised is tai zi turns out like chow.or worse):

i never knew i used my middle left finger for a lot of things.. until i twisted it today..damn pain lah.now im using 3 fingers to type.two from my rite hand and 1 from my left.im not sure how im gonna put hair pins on my hair without that finger. at the most ill have messy hair.

damn it radioblog.picked the rite time to be under maintenence.i cant listen to music again.cause smart me have the song here without u on my windows media player from deborah.damn it.

i love the songs how to save a life and on the way down!!

yay me!

did science project in the morning at braddell court.played bball b4 and after the project.typical of me when u leave me at a court (: science project was ruined cause it started raining when i left and we have to re-do it again.

damn.

i love 98.7!!yay me!

the chorus of on the way down is stuck in my head.

Sick and tired of this world
There's no more air
Tripping over myself, going nowhere
Waiting, suffocating, no direction
I took a dive and

[CHORUS]
On the way down
I saw you, and you saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way you loved me
And on the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held on to you

Been wondering why it's only me
Have you always been inside waiting to breathe
It's alright, sunlight on my face
I wake up and yet, I'm alive 'cuz

[CHORUS]

I want to fade, I'm going under
But now, the weight of the world
Feels like nothing, nothing
(down, down, down)
You're all I wanted
(down, down, down)
You're all I needed
(down, down, down)
You're all I wanted
You're all I needed

And I won't forget the way you loved me
All that I wanted, all that I needed and now

(CHORUS)

yay me!

i supposedly had training today n my sis had lecture..so i had to miss training today. cause sasha had blood on her fur and u cant possibly ask my maid and my younger sister to bring sasha to the vet if there are any complications.im doing nothing at home.its a waste of time really.i should have gone to train!aiyo.now i missed training all because of some cat.damn it.

Listen to the song here in my heart
a melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release

Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own - my own

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not'
Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want toI just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not'
Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

[Chorus]

i love desperate housewifes and prison break! at least ive got smth to look fwd to on mondays and thursdays nites.and tonite too!ugly betty!yay!

training's tmr.cant wait.(:

i keep switching handphones cause my old hp has radio.sooo mah-fan.

i love my new earrings.too bad its too big for sch:(

wats the use of sch breaks if its filled with hmk?!?!?!

sasha is pregnant.

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel


It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those wordsa it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel


It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late


i love this song.


damn me for geting scolding from my mom for attending wednesday's training.like so wat if im sick? i wasnt pushing myself at any point so.. i walked during the match after training. its proof.

cleared my locker. the more bigger my bag gets, the more stuff i tend to put in it. so now my bag weighs a ton.

reading deborah's blog abt her cat made me realize how much i love my cats.it made me realize how much i miss shandy, my 1st cat. it passed on last year. er.. maybe the year b4 that im not sure.

omg. i hate my sci project group. we're always arguing.me n priya against emily n tsi yinn. mostly miss-understandings.lame rite?i noe. if u were they i swear u would laugh till u drop.like me n priya were day-dreaming then came to our senses and asked emily wat we were doing since she told us that the project was changed. she din answer.she only said that since yall dun want to do with me then go do smth on yr own,since yall dun like my idea do the whole experimant by yrself. like wth.this happened when priya gave her crystalisation idea.emily came to a conclusion that nth she does is rite.she told me to join priya and do by ourselves. then me and priya asked tsi yinn wat we were doing. while she was telling us the experiment and we were writing the experiment down emily was like fine lah! do without me! leave me out! then she went to tell or should i say complain to miss syde n tsi yinn followed her.miss syde came to our table and we tried to explain wat happen then emily was like they want to leave me out!they dun like any of my ideas!she thinks the celery idea is STUPID!(pointing a finger at priya) like priya ever did anything.priya only suggested the crystalisation idea.like wtf.miss syde told us to take it easy n we suprisingly spread out the work for the celery experiment.although i wont be surprised if we cant get anything done.

sch break cant be considered a break.tooo much hmk;too little time..

i cant wait till starts on monday.yay.

i hate hikes. but benjemin (i think its spelled wrongly) said our group was the best group he took. cause we never stopped for breaks and kept pushing on.(: after the hike i was sooo sick of staircases. the good thing was we were bitching abt this bimbo in 2/8. she kept omg-ing all the way as if only her shoes got mud since it just had to start raining at the beginning of the trip. i was sooo drenched cause smart me didnt bring a cap cause i thought i would have felt hotter with it if it was sunny but didnt think of the rain.oh after awhile my group called our instructor bimbotic benjemin cause he was ew-ing all the way. oh we were talking abt my teacher weaing a full cup bra or something like that and my insrtuctor was like realli?!?!?! sooo funny please. he said now tat he knew he would take extra notice to tat or something like that. OH! WE SAW A MONKEY PEE!! WHAHAHAHHA SOOO FUNNY!!! IT WAS A MALE MONKEY!! WHAHAHAHA!!at first everyone was like look! the monkey is pee-ing! im like really? then i looked on the floor below the monkey which was not wet so i was thought its pee-ing meh? then when i looked back up slowly i saw this thin line of pee horizontal from its erm.. u noe where.. and the horizontal line went quite a distance before droping vertically. soooo funny please. told my mom abt this then she told me that guys have the same concept. n i was like i din noe that. then she told me to use my imagination.

i notice once i get angry its hard for me to not be angry. so i was damn freakin angry on my bday. love the presents though. my mom gave me a game n a bball. my older sis got me a adidas bag which im using for sch now. my younger sis gave me a pen with a ..erm.. leopard head stuck to the pen. i gave it back to her being nice since i noe i wont use that kind of shit stuff.

trained with medicine balls yesterday during training. damn freakin heavy lah! but after that when we carried the bball felt like 5 to 9 grams?!?! damn light lah!

went to play bball in the morning at west cc. noticed that there is a sign outside the cc stating that ij tp sec has booked the court on certain days and certain times. plaed ball with a back ace caused by the medicine balls. oh and this girl there asked me if i was alvina's sister. i swear she's like the 100th person who asked me that. im like yes. then she's like u both look sooo alike. like shit. even people i dunno noe that im her sis. pf told me she was the last time captain or something like that or some senior before my sis batch that year..

im finally sick. sore throat and flu and cough. started off with a sorethroat thanks to my maid who put sooo much chilli on the fish. i think my voice is weird now.