Saturday, April 19, 2008 ♥
whoa im damn tired! haha. i think i shall try to squeeze in an entry at least every week. yep.
ooohh!!the muttons from 98.7FM came to our sch on wed! laughed like shit can? and was screaming my head off. after that, my throat felt a little sore, but wth, it was all worth it! (: n i love that nokia bus!! except that it got quite hot when it started to get crowded.
yesterday i went for fantasia- chij sch band concert. on the train a lot of construction workers and some chinese people were starring at me. like wth. met up with twin, shanthini and shari at tp, the cabbed down. costs 4 plus even though cjc is sooo near. hahaha. it was damn nice luhh!!i loved the percussions!! dman nice!!hahahah. omg i think they should have a seperate concert for them! really gets the crowd moving!! lourdemary n nurrini said i looked hott. yay me! i gave flowers to monica, jovita, stef, amanda, tsiyinn,... yep. ahha. i think i only went hm at 11 plus after supper with twin, shanthini, shannen and her friend. yep. slept at 12 plus and woke up at 6 today to go for that cramping as many people into the truck as possible for cca points.
Monday, April 14, 2008 ♥
i was just looking at the previous posts last year. wow. i was really excited abt bball then. i cant explain the drastic change in me towards basketball. i mean, i still like it.. but.. it all seems sooo wrong. i really wish we could vote for capt. and vice for next year.its definitely time for a change. maybe that'll stop all the issues going on in the team. we really have to start lovin it agn like how enthu we were abt it for the past two years. now thats gonna be hard :/
subway-ed at shanthini's hse today with regina. supposed to be studying but guess what happened/.? we started taking videos and singing and all. like wth. haha. her room is a really good environment to study in, without the laptop being in it. haha. oooo i saw a really cute guy yesterday at pastamania! omgosh he's such a good waiter. he smiles at everyone he serves, unlike the others. whenever he looks at me from across the room, i pretend to look the other way. well, what can i say? hottness! haha
Sunday, April 13, 2008 ♥
& so i thought i could live without a blog. guess i was wrong.
yesterday was 2.4km run. timing sucked. well, wats new? excluding trainings, i havent been working out. after that left for macs for branch with jac to meet twin n shanthini. then jac had to leave so me, twin and shanthini went to hdb hub, slacked, then left.
she1 started doing it, offered she2 one and she said that she cant do it in front of me. she gave me that pleading look, holding it, waiting for me to say go ahead. but how could i? we had been quite good friends for years. i couldnt let her do it. n i couldnt judge her either; couldnt tell her what to do. she had to make the choice. she1 took pity on her and gave her 1 puff. all the while i just stared. anger had started to build up inside me, just waiting to explod, so i decided to distract myself n started scrowling down my contacts on my hp.
when they were done, we left. i still remain quiet. she2 kept asking me if i was angry over n over again. i tried to ignore her. how can u tell yr friend that u are angry in her face? i was afraid i was going to yell at her.
to tell you the truth, i wasnt angry. i was pissed off! she made a promise that she would stop it abt a week ago, that she would quit, she swore. n she fucking lied! how the fuck can i trust her in this kinda stuff agn?
everytime i wanted to tell her smth, my eyes would start to tear up. i was abt to explode,literally n thats the only how, besides yelling my head of in her face. so i stopped myself n blinked back my tears. i think its like.. the second time in life that i got soo damn bloody pissed off that my eyes started to water whenever i thought of it. she betrayed my effing trust! how could i ever trust her again?
i knew i could stop her. but y didnt i? i could have prevented this from happening. but she had to make the choice on her own now, no one can do it for her anymore. as for she2, the friendship did not start as early as she1. i have right to get mad at her, for giving it to her, or for even doing it. im not her gf, what right do i have in stopping her?
on top of that, mom told me that my aunt isnt doing well in hospital. how was i suppose to deal with that all in one day? gosh.
we met lourdemary n nurrini at inter. i told them abt that 1 puff, hoping that they would drive in the message. if that didnt, i dont know who else to turn to. they had been on it till we reached she1's hse. they dropped the topic cause her mom was at home. we hung out in her room and i acted as if i was ok with her alr. i pretended. if i was, i wouldnt be blogging abt this now. i really hope she'd stop it. i dont want her to ruin her future, nor my twin. really. when they look back in time n regret ever starting it, i would do the same for i did not stop them both from doing it, but just stared! wat kind of friend am i?